Tuesday, February 18, 2020

Pata nahe! I have no CLUE!



Pata nahe aaj kal khade khade kyu roh dete hu mai

Soch mai kuch nahe bass aise he kuch
Bina soche kho dete hu mai

Kehna mushkil lagta hai mujhe

Kehna mushkil lagta hai mujhe
To likh likh kar he sahi
Bass yu he sab kuch kho dete hu mai

Mushkil rah hai yeah safar

Mushkil rah hai yeah safar
Magar dekha hai ke aasan kisse ka bhe naha

Pata nahe aaj kal khade khade roh to dete hu

Kuch halka sa toh lagta hai
Iss dil mai Inn he baha kar

Bass agle pahal he jaise phir wahe janoon sawaar hai phir

Mujhe khud se khud ko kho dene ka
Na he paane ka bass ro dene ka
Pata nahe aaj kal khade khade yu he bass thoda sa roh dete hu mai



Saturday, December 1, 2018

Thursday, November 22, 2018

Friday, August 31, 2018

What got me here, what I am doing here? Who am i?


Scratched, wounded and dumped near the dead road side
It was a dark moonless night, yet some light was falling from the next street
It was late already, and the area was also shabby
I was thrown near the garbage because I was used
Used to the utmost satisfaction of a human thirst

All I could see were dogs scratching me along other garbage bags and thrown food
Trying to smell if I was alright for their consumption
One dog came near me, close very close and suddenly another one barked from behind
It moved away in fear as the master of the pack was here
The master roared like a tiger

Tail up right in dominance as he barked
It came near and smelled me multiple times as the dog was struggling to find what I was
It tried to bite me, but I was rotten, rottener than a dead meat
It moved to the thrown food next to me
The dog and his pack scratched all bags and left leftovers around me

Some trash was under me and a lot over me
I left suffocated with trash and dirt
I was also suffocated with fear, anxiety, uncertainty and my approaching death
All I knew was that I was there, in fact I lost the sense of who I really was or what I was
What got me here, what I am doing here? Who am I?


I was full of dirt and far below for even an animal’s consumption
I lay under the Garbage heap on road on a moonless darkest night
On road on the back side of the café shop
Where I met him for the last time

All I could remember
Last time as I wanted to call it off
Call off the fakeness of this relationship
Wanted to take off the ventilator from this long dead relationship

But as we called it off
I started feeling dead
The love for him was still pure
Things happened, we shouted, and it was over
But my heart lies there dead near the garbage heap

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

उसके साथ की पक्की शख्शियत


मेरे हाथ मे पेंट और ब्रश देख कर, मेरा चश्मा नाक के नीचे आते देख कर मेरे पास आ कर मेरा चश्मा वापिस चढ़ा कर बोला, " अब ठीक है?"


मैं हसीं और कहा की "अब ठीक है".



उसके साथ की पक्की शख्शियत दिखी थी मुझे ....


येह नही पता था की आँखों पर चश्मा नही बस पर्दा डालने लगा है.

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Monday, December 26, 2016

जी लूंगी काट लूंगी - A poem that describes a woman's retrieving self courage and self respect


जी लूंगी काट लूंगी


जी लूंगी काट लूंगी,
तूने जो ख़ुशी दी वो बांटे लुंगी,
बाँट ना पाई दुःख तो क्या,
कुछ ख़ुशी के पल ही छानट लुंगी,

छंटनी थी अगर खुशिया,
इस गम के पिटारे मे,
छानटा ना होता तुझे,
इन् मोझो के किनारे मे,

 

ज़िन्दगी मे अकेले छोड़ कर जीने वाले,
मारने से पहले मेरे दिल को मारने वाले,
सितारे तेरे टूटते नज़र आते है,
सपने मेरे छुड़ते नज़र आते है,

बदल ना पाया जो तू,
संभल ना पाया जो तू,
तेरे सपनो को मिटा दूंगी,
बाँट ना पाई दुःख तो क्या,
कुछ ख़ुशी के पल ही छानट लुंगी